It’s Thursday afternoon. I’m sitting at a small table in a local café, enjoying the view of downtown and a mocha chip frappé as I write this. Jack Johnson is strumming out Banana Pancakes. I blink away from watching the people pass outside and it takes a second to sink in: I’m not dreaming. No, it’s Thursday afternoon and I think it might be okay to start feeling like one of those café people.
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A week ago today, on the 4th of July, we celebrated my own personal Independence Day. It was my first official day not working for the company I’ve been with for–well, for my entire career. After more than 14 years, I made the giant leap out of my comfort zone, said goodbye to my friends and the security of a steady paycheck, because the time came for me to keep growing. It feels like one of the biggest steps of my life, and it’s crazy insane exciting. Well, maybe thrilling would be a better word, like at the top of a roller coaster, squealing with delight because I LOVE it, but it’s pretty freakin’ scary too.
Okay granted, maybe the planning could have been a little better to make the transition less scary. I did have a plan: plug on for 3 years socking away a safety net and throwing 110% of myself into growing my business on the side until it was strong enough to sustain me full time. It was a good plan. As it went, though, it wasn’t working out so well for my heart. I finally had to sit up and pay attention to what my heart was telling me. I spent weeks and months agonizing over the options, the risks, the consequences. And after all the internal debate, what I decided to do, quite simply, was take both hands off the steering wheel and trust that no matter what, it would all be okay in the end.
This is an amazingly rare place to be. To step out of a routine I could have done backwards and blindfolded into this… big, beautiful world of possibility, choose-your-own-adventure? It’s awesome. And I can’t write this without saying how incredibly grateful I am to the hero by my side who’s as excited and supportive of me and my dreamin’ as any girl could ever wish for. That and I have the best cheerleaders in the world making me feel like Wonder Woman.
Honestly though, I’m not a superhero. I’m human. I’d be lying if I said all my fears vaporized the minute I stepped into my studio to work. I’m still scared, but I realize how easy it could be, if I’m not careful, to become paralyzed if I give too much play to doubt and worry. I’m reminding myself that it’s okay to be afraid–change is scary, and no one ever said growth was easy. It’s okay to be afraid, but if I trust and keep moving forward, amazing things will happen, bigger than anything I’ve imagined so far.
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When I heard these words in my meditation this morning, my heart was filled with happiness and peace. I was inspired to create this simple reminder for myself, and to share it with anyone else who might need to hear it too.
So this goes out to every brave soul who’s growing, reaching for a dream, stepping out in faith, taking a chance, following their heart. For anyone who’s threatened by fear or doubt or worry. It’s all going to be okay in the end. Relax, and enjoy the unfolding.
Okay, so I’m partial to Apple and since my phone’s always on me, iPhone wallpaper was the logical choice. But if anyone would like it for another device just shoot me an email and I’d be happy to make it for you.